This Blog Will Be In Mourn Until April 19th.

In this lonely room I stares to the window,
With my wet eyes I look it in sorrow,
This pain and misery days without you Elly,
Every seconds and every day I never forget this honestly,
And every smiles and wonderful moments as the wind blow.

For every strength of you I have borrow,
And our glittered memories that glow,
I'm not a good sister,it's so badly,
In this lonely room I stares.

We've been together,high and low,
When in the dark,your heart will always glow,
My heart and soul dragged like a carriage it's painly,
No one could ever see this agony,
And the wind keeps to blow,
In this lonely room I stares.



When I'm sad you've asked me what went wrong,
And asking me to be strong,
How can I be so strong,
Living without you is something wrong.

-Nami on Elly's memoir,July 9th,2007.

Happy 22nd Birthday,Achik.

A week to respect my sister's birthday Sherina Ellyana.Within this week,all entries will not in usual form,"thoughts of mass destruction".

The title blog will temporarily changed to "Sherina Remembered".

I will wear black for whole week,and on April 19th,I decided not to online/Myspacing/going out.I want to spend my whole day inside her room.

Thank you.

Ez.

Tag From Nami's New Blog.

Apakah benda paling penting dalam hidup kamu?
3F,Freedom,Family and Friends.

Apakah benda terakhir yang kamu beli dengan duit sendiri?
Coke.

Di manakah tempat impian perkahwinan kamu?
Las Vegas hahaha!

Berapa lama hubungan kamu berkekalan?
Ermm,depend,kalau macam hantu I tinggal je.

Adakah kamu dilamun cinta?
yuuuuuuuuup.

Di manakah restoran terakhir kamu makan malam?
makan kat rumah je.

Namakan buku terakhir yang kamu beli?
The History of People of United States-Howard Zinn.

Apakah nama penuh kamu?
Ezreen Emira Sulaiman.

Kamu lebih senang dengan mak atau ayah?
right now,i just only have my dad.

Namakan seseorang yang kamu ingin berjumpa untuk pertama kalinya dalam hidup anda?
Daniel Johns of Silverchair

Sebutkan 7 sabahat PALING rapat dengan anda?
1. Sue.
2. Nami.
3. Citra.
4. Adryan.
5. Christina Rivera.
6. Mary Edward Shane.
7. Susan McCartney.

Adakah kamu mencuci pakaian kamu sendiri?
Yup,i takde duit nak hantar pergi dobi.

Tempat yg paling seronok kamu mahu pergi?
Pet shop.

5 perkara tentang org yang tag kamu
~ Dia ada 3 blog.
~ umur 25 tahun.
~ dia Jawa.
~ dia radikal.
~ Dia suka Radiohead.

Racism.

The disease.

As a School Election Officer,I've been go to some schools,kindergarden,primary and secondary schools to monitor elections in school.Sometimes I'm dealing with student's petitions about food,about teachers and sometimes it's simply about burden of study.I also handled student's surveys and opinions about their school.

However,today I've facing which is the hideous philosophy in history of mankind - fascism.

A Neo-Nazi wannabe boy,around 14 years old,going straight to my face and slanting his eyes (sign of despised for Asian people).I call him.He stopped.

"You hate Asian people?"

"Yup.They're stealing our land.I hate them all.They don't deserves living here.Like you."

I'm telling him frank,

"Your T-Shirt."

"Why?" he replied.

"Most fabric came from China,you moron."

Then he stares at me.And I look him straight.

"Look kid,I'm an Irish-Turkish-Malay blood.I don't give a fuck about your fucking blood.Plus,you're ain't fucking Hitler.Hitler is a German.You're not.Wake up,dumbo."

I left him and heading straight to office.I then reported racist remarks from that kid.All I know his name is Michael.I hope action will be taken for him,to educate his ignorance about internationallity.

So,what is Nazism in German,Vichy Revolution Nationale in France,Mussolinism in Italy,Asia for Asian in Japan,Zionism in Israel,Klu Klux Klan in America and Ketuanan Melayu in Malaysia,what they're fighting for?

Their race supremacy towards one piece of land called state,nation or country.As what I've learn from my learning in my entire life,people like me is represents internationalism.My late mom was Turkish-Irish,while my dad anchestor came from the island of Sulawesi(Bugis).I don't believe in purity of blood.What the fuck is purity of blood.What makes you so sure your blood is so pure?

Some people believes that there's no race better than his race,no religion better than his religion,no clan better than his clan.A royal family's blood is so pure that no one could ever touch.His religion is better so he can insult others religion because he thought his religion is the best!

This is the disease in our society now.I know some Melayu in Malaysia calling for boycott for against Zionism aggression towards Palestine,but in the same time they have a thought that Chinese is 'pendatang'.Hello,your anchestor was naik tongkang from Indonesia too,hundreds years ago!

I hope this article can heals these people from this idiotic and moronic ideas of race supremacy.

UEFA Champions League:My Prediction

Last nights in Europe(in Canada it's afternoon),quarterfinals of UEFA Champions League.Although a Celtic fan(which already disqualified),but still remained observing one of the most prestigue cup in Europe.

In Old Trafford,title holder Manchester United are losing grip against 2004 Champion FC Porto.The defending champions might facing difficult task to defend their title in Dragao,Porto next week.However,solid rock defender Rio Ferdinand might return back and it would be great for the Red Devils.

United 2-2 Porto
MU:Rooney 15,Tevez 86
POR:Rodriguez 8,Mariano 89

In El Madrigal,home Villareal CF are also tight with away Arsenal.This is a great chance for Arsene's boys to qualify to the next stage.Arsenal's best achievement in Champions League was 2006,qualified to the final but lost to Barcelona FC.

Villareal 1-1 Arsenal
VIL:Senna 10
ARS:Adebayor 66

In Anfield,Mighty Reds,the 5 times Champions Liverpool FC in shock defeat in home with another English rival Chelsea FC.The Londoners has managed to win in Anfield for the first time since Roman Abramovich takeover.However,it was The Reds who leading when sensational Fernando Torres scores as early as minute 6.Chelsea should be thankful with defender Branislav Ivanovic for two header and Didier Drogba to The Blues win.

Liverpool 1-3 Chelsea
LIV:Torres 6
CHE:Ivanovic 39,62,Drogba 67

In Nou Camp,Catalan giant Barcelona FC reveals that they are the force of the football today.The youngest manager on competition,Josep 'Pep' Guardiola shows that Barcelona might bidding 'treble title' this season.Argentine superstar Lionel Messi are absolute sensational,while Bayern defenders keep blaming each other as the Catalan giant smacked the Germans 4-0.

Barcelona 4-0 Bayern
BAR:Messi 9,38,Eto'o 12,Henry 43
BAY:none

The next match is on April 14th.

Chelsea vs Liverpool(Stamford Bridge,London)
Bayern Munich vs Barcelona(Allianz Arena,Munich)
Arsenal vs Villareal(Emiriates Stadium,London)
Porto vs Manchester United(Dragao,Porto)

The final will be held in Stadio Olympico,Rome.

MY PREDICTION:

United will managed to win,in small amount of goal.Maybe 1-0.I don't think Cristiano Ronaldo will score because he is in Porto,which he is a hate figure,because he is from arch rivals Sporting Lisbon.I think it will be Rooney.

Arsenal will win the match,3-0.Easy when you're in Emiriates.Adebayor will score one of the goals.

Liverpool won't have a chance to qualify after a huge defeat with Chelsea.I think Chelsea will play defensively,although without captain John Terry.I think the game will be on Chelsea,2-0.

Barcelona don't have a problem in this match.I think some key players like Lionel Messi and Henry will be rested.Take a look Bojan Krkic,he is the rising star.Barcelona will win,maybe 2-0 will be enough.

Best performance of top 8:

Champions:
Liverpool FC(5 times-1977,1978,1981,1984,2005)
Bayern Munich(4 times 1974,1975,1976,2001)
Manchester United(3 times-1968,1999,2008)
Barcelona FC(2 times-1992,2006)
Porto FC(2 times-1987,2004)

Finalist:
Arsenal(lost to Barcelona in 2006)
Chelsea(lost to Manchester United in 2008)

Semi finalist:
Villareal(lost to Arsenal in 2006)

Teaching Democracy In Classrooms To Future Of Canada.

It's my new job (practically in workforce training) as School Election Officer in Election Canada.It's part of Student Vote programme,to teach children what is democracy.

In Student Vote,I will teach kids in kindergarden and primary school to perform their responsiblity to their country.

And to teach the good or bad in democracy.

Wish me luck.

:)

Condoglianza L'Aquila,Italia.

Nella mia compassione piu profonda a coloro che e morto nel terremoto,L'Aquila,Italia.

-In my deepest sympathy to those who died in Earthquake in L'Aquila,Italy.

Mourning for a day. :(

Confessions of a Shopaholics-Addiction or Consumerism?

I've watched the latest Jerry Bruckheimer's movie with Rasheed after lunch yesterday-Confessions of a Shopaholics.Anyway it's about a woman(Isla Fisher-which is currently Borat the Kazakhstan Sacha Baron Cohen wife) who addicts to shop,and from her addiction,she got a job,as a fashion critic of a magazine.Pull stop,I don't want to spoil the story.

Well,shopaholics is a problem.I was a shopaholics too.I guess my brought-ups in Milan spoils me.Teatro Alla Scala,Galleria Vittorio,near Piazza del Duomo,it's a shopping haven.Gucci,Prada,Louis Vuitton,Dolce Gabbana,you name it,it's near my doorstep.During when I was in Malaysia,Bukit Bintang is my roaming center.Edge to edge,floor to floor,I already conquered it.Bags of new clothes,it's my way to kill my depression.And it's killing my wallet as well.

To be honest,I don't care about anything at all,and flash back when I 6-7 years back,I think I'm such a bimbo.I don't give a damn about global poverty although I know it,but looking at that time when I was in love with a socialistas who loves bundles second hand shop,I asked him I don't know how many times,"what is your satisfaction by buying clothes that people already wore?

Yes,his answer makes me yawned.At that time.I swear to God I don't give a damn about poor people.They are poor so what?Should I be as poor like them,oh please.That was my answer at that time.

Things a lot happen to me and makes me more wiser,I guess.Yes I admitted I was a smart dumb girl at that time,but I don't know,when I arrived in this boring steppe city of Calgary,where people wearing cowboys dress and jeans,and pretending to be cool,sometimes people here thinks that their dress-ups is so damn cool and want to showing off with me,hello,I'm brought up in Milan.My school dress are far far stylish then your casual dress,please!

But anyway,it's just clothes.You didn't look nice or bad,it's just your psychology.I don't know,people tell me Lady GaGa is stylish,I look her like a rubbish,in my eyes.I don't know,people says Katy Perry is stylish,but for me,I don't like her striking colors fashion.

Somehow I felt a simple shirt and pair of jeans with Converse shoes will be great.A transformation to be rock chic,right?Hik hik!

If you had a girlfriend like me,please,advice her.Or she'll waste your money away.

Don't let your credit card wasted you!

Walk the Walk,Talk the Talk.

I've seen so many of angst people after Najis been appointed as a Prime Minister.Based on my observation over 40 percent Malaysian disagrees with Najib to be PM.40 percent,in politics means it's HUGE.

But even as huge as 40 percent,which equivelant to 12 million Malaysians,are seems not enough to stop a determination of one person to achieve his gameplan agenda.12 million peoples are include those "pakcik-pakcik sembang kedai kopi","pakcik pakai kopiah suka cakap kuat-kuat dalam ceramah",political junkies,whiners,internet keyboard warriors,and some people who seek for balancing the political power in Malaysia.

We have proven,although Conservative Party led by Stephen Harper is still ruling,yet we sucsessfully make him to listen some.We make him scares a little bit.We voicing up our concern about economy,and constitution's right.At least,with our voice we make him to concern about something.Baffin Island near Arctic Circle is already declared as National Park.At least Stephen Harper shows something that he's listening(although not all of our voice he concerned).

However,people in Malaysia who against the establishment of Barisan Nasional,seems loves to sensationalizing the issues played by Opposition,which never carried serious issues such as unemployment or economic crisis that we're facing.All I ever listen is "rasuah sekian-sekian juta,bla bla bla",and they're talking to the air.No proof,no tribunal,no nothing.How about enviromental,does one of 12 million of you concern about it?None.Because after all these time,I've listened about Barisan Nasional corruption,but I never listen "contigency plan of Pakatan Rakyat" if they become(some of states already became government) people's elected government.

First,unite Pakatan.I believe the unification of Pas,DAP and PKR is just for sake to prevent BN to rule.We must stop to think to be an Opposition.We have to step forward,to be a GOVERNMENT.Unless people like Nami which declared "the best government is no government at all".He's an anarchist.But non-anarchist oppositions like "pakcik sembang kedai kopi","pakcik suka cakap kuat-kuat dalam ceramah",internet political junkies,whiners,stop voicing and keep on yack yack yack in front of your coffee.It's a right time for you to act.

Second,be serious in political topic.Talk about our unemployment rate goes higher and higher,our currency become less valuable,talk about economic growth that become so slow,in Canada,that's concern us a lot.Not chit chat chit chat about something that you're even not sure.

Walk the walk,talk the talk.It's like in Malay phrase "cakap banyak pun tak guna".

Yack yack yack,talk talk talk.I already joined mass rally against Conservatives in Calgary.I know what it's feel to be a rioter.

100,000 is only for protestors.To revolt,it tooks MILLIONS.

Najib.

Nazi,Authorcratic,Jobless,Idioticity,Bullshit.

Ladies and gentleman,The 6th Prime Minister of Malaysia(Number 6 is the devil number hahahahaha!)

I'm glad that Stephen Harper,despite sucks,at least he didn't murder a Mongolian. :)

A Call at 3am In The Morning.

A call awakes me,I'm looking at my clock,it was 3am in the morning.What the fuck?With lazy eyes I picked up the phone.

Ez:Hey,it's 3am in the morning.Who is this?

And suddenly it was my eldest brother,Shahril a.k.a. Aril a.k.a. Along.With his nervous and worried voice,plus his voice like,shaking or something.Very chaotic tone.

Aril:Angah,my house is on fire!My house is on fire!

My jaw dropped like Oh My God!I opened up my eyes widely to fight infinite sleepiness and listens to him very carefully.

Ez:Did you call fire department?Police?Anything?

Aril:Of course I call them first,then I call you.Please inform my parent-in-law that Citra is on peril.She's trapped on fire!

I'm even shocked when listening from Along.Without wasting a second,I'm going straight and knocked my dad's room.

Papa!Papa!Aril's house is on fire!Wake up!

My dad is a very calm person.Although he's calm,he's kinda worried.His son Shahrul/Arul/Usu,his daughter Sherina/Elly/Achik and his wife Sophia died.I don't think he didn't want to lose another family member.

He picked Aril's call,and tell him to calm down.Remember,Allah will always there for you.

Papa:Don't worry.Call fire department and meanwhile,save anything important from fire.Your passports,IDs,everything.

Aril told my dad that he didn't have a time to save anything,including his wife Citra.He tried to awakes Citra but he failed.

My dad said "hang up,Aril.I'll call your parent in law."

And then here comes Citra's parent.Very,very worried for Citra.

Adryan,Citra's cousin also here.They're waiting the news from Aril patiently.

And for me it's a very dramatic situation when Aril describes what happen to him at London,Ontario,Canada,which is 2,000 miles from Calgary,Alberta,Canada.

I felt so nervous.And my dad tells him,

"Don't worry,we'll pray for you.Just relax,ok?"

As my dad put the phone down.A SMS was received at my dad's phone.

"Haha.April Fool dad,Ez!-Aril"

What?APRIL FOOL?3 am in the morning??

Everyone is like,pissed off with Aril.Everyone's faces is like,"Damn you eternally,Aril!".Curses keeps on going as Citra's family return back to home.

If you want to create a joke,why on 3am?

A very cruel dumbass brother.