Dear Bestie.

To my bestie,

We start to know each other in the wrong way.We both argue and fighting over a man,which for me is ridiculous.We fight and finally I have to accept,it's your man and I have to accept it.

For me he is a nice man.He might not smell good,always sweaty when we met up,and he is 'a person out from cave',no table manners in front of food.But he always be himself,and that's his character.He always touches people that he love with his words,his childish character that finally make us laugh.I knew you also touches with his character too.(to that guy,this is honest,okay?No offense! )

I don't need to argue,and I don't want to fight about him anymore.What's past is past,bygone is bygone.I wouldn't ask him to pay back everything that I spent for him during 1 year in relationship with him.

It's your right to defend your right.But seriously,I don't want to steal back your boy.It's your boyfriend.I just want to create joke,and be goofy like friend to friend.I'm just his friend,not more than that.

Believe me,your friendship worth everything that I could ever get.And I really mean it.I know during I'm in hospital it's you crying for me.I guess nobody except you.And I appriciate for that.

And I know it's hard for be a best friend for someone who currently in love with ex.If you be like me you'll know it's hard.But friendship is over up above,no one could ever disturb it.

I already lost my sister because of him,now I don't want to lose my bestfriend too.

I can disappear from both of you,if you want to.If you really want me to do that,I will stop blogging,I will stop Myspacing,everything.Just to make sure both of you happy.

You see,everytime both of you got crisis,I'm the one that should be blame.I'm tired to be blamed all the time.I'm tired to be in between of relationship,and I don't want to be in limbo.

If you really mean "friends forever",then you should embrace those words with care and love,not doubts and envy.

History is history.Germany killed 100,000 French in World War II,but now they became friends.How many Japanese died after American blasted an atomic bomb in Hiroshima and Nagasaki,yet they are one of the biggest trade partner in the world.

We should learn from history,and I failed to love him because of doubt.If you repeat mistakes like I did,you'll be the one who screaming out and disappointing.

Take care of him with love and care.And take care of me as your best friend.

I swear to God that he is nothing but my best friend.

Before I end this open letter,let us sing this Spongebob's song together,shall we?

F is for friendship,friends forever
U is for U and me
N is for N-yway and N-ything at all!
It's all fun for me!

hug and kisses bestie!

xoxo

Viva forever!

Spread your Love!

Who those with your lover,take care your love carefully.

Who those who alone,enjoy your life as usual.

Who those who want to make love tonight,play save.

And who those who died because of love,you're a martyr of love.

And for those who have thought Valentine's Day is a day for celebrating St. Valentine's birthday,let's forget about that.We celebrate the Day of Love,not his birthday.

Boys,take your girls,wear nice,smell nice,bring flowers,sing a song,write a poetry,treat your girl as a queen.

Girls,pamper yourself,be cheeky and let the love in the air!

Miley Cyrus is our New Britney Spears.

Yes I still do remember.It was 1997 when naive aura is surround me.I was 11 years old.Britney Spears in that time,was Disney Channel artist,alongside Christina Aguilera,Justin Timberlake and Backstreet Boys.

After her first hits Hit Me Baby One More Time,she strucks with a lot of controversies.Controversies which sometimes sounds idiot,but controversies still a controversies.

She told the press that she wants to remain virgin until she's married.

In the end Justin Timberlake(what a lousy taste) fucks her before she even marry her husband.She then fucks with Fred Durst(what?another lousy taste),and everything that she upholds now goes to the drain.

In 2003 she created a controversy,kissing with Madonna.People accused her as lesbian.She then marrying her first husband Jason Alexander within 48 hours,before divorce.She then married with Kevin Federline the dancer(what?).

She then divorced,emotionally unstabled and almost be a moron.

After rehab and rehab and rehab,she finally stablize herself,which for me a good recovery after a hideous stupidity which for me is unforgiven.

Well,Miley Cyrus is the brand new Disney Channel star.After her first sucsess of Hannah Montana,she then created a controversy due to her naked camera pictures that bluetoothed by all people around the world.Duh?

She then break up with one of Jonas brother(I don't remember which,my headache is as hard as rock right now),and currently date with underwear model I don't remember his name,Gaston,Justin or who-the-fuck-he-is,I don't care.

She told media that she will remain a virgin until she married.(ha ha ha ha!)

She is right now been sued by some Chinese who felt offended sue her US$4 billion(C$6.5 billion) after her slant-eye pose.

Well,I just want to told you guys,Disney is evil as fuck.Disney can turn a decent country girl into lunatic freaking whore.Believe me,after Britney,here comes Miley,who's next?Vanessa Hudgens?Already got her nude pic.

Well,the best thing for you kids is to leave your tv remote control and go back to your room and read your book.

p/s:the only good thing about Disney is Phineas and Ferb.The best cartoon for me so far.ha ha ha!

Evil as fuck.

Tag and Keep On Tagging.

This tag game is called "Motion Pictures Soundtrack".All you have to do is answer those questions below with song title that suits your answer.Ready?

YOUR FEEL TODAY.

1.How do you feel today?
"Good"-Better Than Ezra.

2.How do you describe yourself?
"Superwoman"-Alicia Keys.

3.You meet your favorite singer/actor/sportperson.How does you feel?
"El Scorcho"-Weezer

4.What do you feel about your neighbor?
"Freak On the Leash"-KoRn.

5.What do you feel about your boss/lecturer/teacher?
"Shut Up"-Simple Plan.

6.What does you feel when you drive/walk to school/office/college?
"Let Down"-Radiohead.

7.What does you feel towards your best friend?
"My Best Friend"-Weezer.

8.What does you feel towards your boy/girlfriend?
"Berhenti Berharap"-Sheila On 7.

9.What does you feel when you're facing big moments such as presentation/exams/interview?
"You'll Never Walk Alone"-Celtic FC

10.When clock strikes 12.00 am it's time to?
"Go To Sleep"-Radiohead.


PEOPLE SURROUND YOU.

1.Your mother?
"When Your Gone"-Avril Lavigne

2.Your father?
"The Greatest Men That Ever Lived"-Weezer

3.Your brother?
"Jackass"-Green Day.

4.Your sister?
"My Immortal"-Evanescence

5.Your pet?
"Cheeky Cheeky Goo"-Phineas and Ferb.

6.Your lover/significant other/crush?
"Creep"-Radiohead.

OTHER PEOPLE.

1.Barack Obama?
"I Can"-Johanna Stahley.

2.George W Bush?
"Ha Ha You're Dead"-Green Day

3.David Beckham?
"Bodysnatchers"-Radiohead

4.Miley Cyrus?
"Nobody's Perfect"-herself.

5.Joe Jonas?
"So What"-Pink

6.Chris Brown?
"You Make Me Sick"-Pink

7.Zac Efron?
"Who's That Girl?"-Eve

8.Angelina Jolie?
"Wannabe"-Spice Girls.

Now it's time for the next tag victim:-Sue,Sarah Samz,Nami,Nyzm and KO_E.

Elly,If Only You Were Here Right Now.

My dearest sister,Elly,

Yesterday our big brother Along married with someone he love.Of course life has change a lot,especially Papa,me and Aril.Aril right now is like Papa,has a responsiblity to take care his family.

Last few months,before Along get married,I've been thinking a lot about you,and Mom.I've been thinking if only both of you right now here with me,prepare for Aril's big day.I wonder that you'll be busy as me,especially our Along is well known with his ignorant attitude.In his final bachelor days he finally realized he is the one get married,not me.

Everything was fine,of course,things will be more excited if Aril's wedding happens in Malaysia.Especially to meet friends and family,not from far far away from our beautiful nation of Malaysia.Well,I'm ain't Malaysian anymore.But I miss Malaysia a lot,especially durians and ice-kacang.You of course will missing your favorite lemang.It's like you don't want to miss lemang in Hari Raya.

Dear Achik,

I still cry and guilty for what I've done to you.I can't control my anger.In my head I in that time there's only one I've ever think,why him?Why my ex who dumped me is the one that you chose to love?Well,he is no longer be with me,and I accept that fact,slowly I realized I must forget all these thing before I become 'andartu'.

Dear Achik,

You know that we have shared a lot.We shares dresses,foods,laughs,cries,everything.Just like mama told me,you and I were so close that no one could ever torn us apart.No one can break us,well I was wrong.He is the one,my ex boyfriend,and your one and only boyfriend break us apart.I don't want to blame him,I'm more to blaming myself.He deserved to be love by someone who really cares about him.Like you or his current girlfriend,Sue.Don't worry Elly,I knew Sue.She is a nice girl.She is capable to be his girl,to replaced you.

Dear Achik,

Our relationship since you've met and close with him is not good like before.Everything turns so sour.I've smashed your favorite Barbie dolls toy,I've shouted at your face,humiliating you in front of people,calling you "a retarded sister",the worst is when I threw plate and dishes to your face,and you're bleeding.No one can stop me.I feel superior.Your pain and agony seems a music for me.All because you've cross the line,someone that I love dumped me because of you,which I can't accept that.

Papa scared that I might killing you on that time.That's why Papa send you apart from home.But in the end,you've choked because of peanut salad,which you're not supposed to eat,and fate has come,you're on the path to meet God.

When the news arrives,Mama cries and didn't go out from her bed.For weeks she crying and never say a word.Sometimes the way she stares at me it's like I'm the one who killing you.I cry all night long thinking what I've done to you.Papa registered me into anger management course.

As the time passes by,as the memories go away,I realized that what else that I have right now,except our sweet memories as sisters.Just because a man,I almost kill you.

Few months later Mama passed away,and we buried her besides you.For taking care of you.The few weeks before she's gone,she told us that "she wants to be with Achik because Achik is a great daughter",Oh God,if only you know what I've felt right now.

Now Along already married.It's a right time for him to stands at his own feet.Me,I don't know.No one likes girl with Capoera and Muay Thai as her talent.While you,my sister,you're an angel in this house but since you're gone,this house were empty.

I could spend my days crying inside your room.Papa locked your room so I'll never depressed when I've thinking of you.As the day you've born,to the day you left me,you left me one thing to me-no matter how harsh I treat you,and no matter how I humiliating you,you always smile and love me as your sister.

I'm not a good sister.

Elly,if only you were here right now.

Najib,You Can't Buy Pride!

This is an open letter to all Malaysians.

Yesterday,one of Malaysian state government has been toppled.It's actually a common thing for some countries,for coup d'etat with defection in order for the government to collapse.There are 3 ways to overthrow the government,says in Arriana Huffington's book How to Overthrow the Government.

1.No-confidence vote.You can gather all opposition and some discontent government members to against ruling party.

2.Military intervene.Just like what happen in Thailand,the military came with tanks and guns and seize government buildings.

3.Revolution.Just like what Filipino did to Ferdinand Marcos,they're marching at streets and creating chaos until the government disable to control.

It's seems Anwar is so ignorant when he open up his trick book.Najib mobilizing it,and launch an assault to Perak Pakatan's ruling government.With a shaky government comprimise a Pas member,which is only 6 out of 58 seats,it's shows that how "Ketuanan Melayu" still apply even in Pakatan.

If I were Perakian,I will allow myself a DAP leader.Or perhaps to play save,DAP should give more space for Malays to join their party.

Now,stop complaining.Nami will always be lese majeste,but I don't think Malaysians should do that.Malays aren't Irish.Malays history is not as bad as Irish,Iranians or French or Russian Revolution era.However,the Sultans must stop giving aid to Barisan Nasional because it's seems like Barisan Nasional always using them to over rule your country.Sultans must be neutral,do not interfere political problems.Like King Carlos of Spain,King Gustav of Sweden or Queen E,they were all stay neutral in any how and any day.

Now,Najis tun Razak game of politics,he treat it like football clubs.If you can buy players,the player can join the club.This is not a Premier League,Najib.This is Malaysian future.You can't buy pride,Najib.

I've heard some discontent and disagreement from some even from Perak people,and I believe this Machievellian style to rule,this is so dirty that we people should act.

The rakyat should play a major role in their politics.

3 choices at above,which one is your choice?

How many years you want to stay in corrupted,dirty system of politics?

Afterall,it's not my problem.My problem is with Stephen Harper,not Najis Tun Razak.

Malaysians,you decide.

Chinese Communist are more evil than Israeli Zionist!

More and more Muslim world urging for boycott this so called "Zionist product",such as KFC,McD,Kotex,Nestle,Burger King etc.They urge to boycott this Zionist product because of Israeli aggression against people of Palestine,and massacre that happens around 50 years ago,never ever stop.

Everyone seems love to blame Zionist as the 'sole eternal Muslim enemy',but this people,for me,definitely ignorant about what happens to Muslim people in China.

According from my Google Earth,from Kuala Lumpur to Muslim Province of Uighur is around 2,568.39 miles,compared with Gaza 4,755.08 miles.So,if all of you Malaysians can see what happen in Gaza,why aren't you didn't see what happen in Uighur?

In Malay there's a proverb:"kuman seberang laut boleh nampak,gajah depan mata tak nampak".

Yesterday Nami wrote his beautiful poem about misery in Malaysia.Well I don't want to go closer than that,because I don't know,Muslim in Malaysia prefers to be Muslim International,they don't give a fuck what happen with people who scavenge in streets of Kuala Lumpur.(even I get a critic too from him.)

For your information,by this far,Chinese communist authority has already spent US$61 billion for military expansion,and paralleled with Chinese parity,which 10 times lower than US,US$61 billion seems like US$610 billion!

Now,by so far,Chinese authority has murdered over 200,000 MUSLIM Uighur since Communist establishment in 1949.During Chinese Cultural Revolution,unmarried women of Uighur has been fucked by Chinese military.Uighur men has been forced to be slave,build railways and road.Married women has been fucked in front of their husbands.Children has been murdered,head off and they hang their heads around the town.In Tibet,most monks has been murdered by thousands bullets at their monestary.In communist country they're atheist,so no religion allowed in China.Imam has been murdered and hang in front of City Hall.They burnt Quran,they're forced Uighur women to do orgy for them.

Now I telling you,if all of you boycotting this Zionist products WITHOUT EVEN BOYCOTT CHINESE PRODUCTS,YOU'RE BLOODY HYPOCRITE!

Now,yesterday a protestor has threw shoe towards Chinese Premier Wen Jiabao,like Muqtader al Zaidi which threw his shoe to Bush.I'm glad somebody threw the shoe to this commie bloodsucker!

At least Americans or Israeli allows its people to vote,unlike Chinese!

So today I urge all of you,if you boycott so called Zionist products,you must also boycott Chinese product too!

For your information,I never miss Olympic Games.When Olympic arrives,I'm waiting it with great expectation,with great athletes and sports event,but Beijing 2008,I decide to boycott it.I never watch Beijing Olympics,I never buy any souvenir,I never buy anything from Chinese.I rather to pay a little bit expensive Korean vegetables rather to buy anything Chinese.

I guess what happen in Gaza can also be compared with what happen in Uighur,except people in Malaysia never noticing it.Or even worst,NEVER BOTHER!

Uighur people will definitely jealous with Palestinian because those Arabs got more attention than Uighur people.BUT REMEMBER,THEY ARE MUSLIM TOO!


Uighur people.



Military harrestment in streets are common in China.



Muslim Uighurs behind the bars.



One of Uighur's detention camps.



Military activity including murder and rape Uighur people in action.



In Urumqi,capital city of Muslim Province of Uighur,Chinese Han take over the land that Uighurs owned.They're living in painful poverty.



Uighur girls often received sexual harrestment from Chinese military.



Only communist rules,no religion allowed!

Now,open your eyes Muslims!OPEN YOUR EYES!

Antigone,dude,I'm joining theatre?

I was walking on my faculty,just scribble with notes and some articles that I should refer,suddenly a girl walking near at me.

"Hello Ez,my name is Susan".

"Hi Susan.How can you know my name?"

"Well,you're President of Lefthanders Club right?Who haven't forgot your inspirational speech,about lefthanded people and discrimication with left people?I'm a lefthander too."

"Hehe,uh,you know it's a rhetoric that create a wonderful speeches.It never be wonderful without rhetoric."

"Well,I want you to be my actress,lead actress in my play."

"Err..I never act in play.I never had a experience(to act)."

"Don't worry,I see,people like you will never have a problem with stage fright.I think you're alright.Besides,I've read one of your articles about Girl Power Movement in Faculty of Humanities,right?It's inspiring us!"

"Err..thank you."

"In conjunction with Women Emancipation's Day on April 21st,I hope you can join us to perform Antigone,the Greek girl power play."

"Who is Antigone?A Greek?I don't speak Greek.I have anchestor of Turkish but I don't speak Turkish,how can I speak Greek?"

"Don't worry,we will doing it in English.All you have to do is coming to our talent casting,right now.By the way,I'm your director,Susan McPhilson.Christina Rivera,she's the one who recommends you."

"Bloody bastard girl!Haha!Well,I hope you're don't pick the wrong girl.I don't know how to act."

"Ok,here's a script,all you need to do is read,and imagine that you're a women leader who wants to defend women from these,sarcastic,egomaniac guys."

"Now I like that.I love Antigone.Yes!This is a great script.When the play begin?"

"Now you need to rehearse with us,and the show is on Emancipation Day,April 21st."

"So,I should be like Hillary Clinton,like that?"

"Sort of.Probably like Cleopatra or Queen E.Strong yet beautiful."

"Cleopatra ehh..hmm,but I'm afraid that I have a lot of commitment,especially my brother will be marry this week,so I'm quite busy.."

"It's okay.No pressure,but I believe you can do it.Just like BO always said,Yes We Can."

"Haha,BO is the one who defeat my Hill!"

"Just read the script,okay?You're interested?"

"Yes,I think it's such a honor to join this play.Antigone,eh?Girl power!"

"Yes,girl power and lefthanders too!"

"Okay,Susan,nice to know you."

"You too!"

Now can anybody who has experienced the theatre,can anybody help me?

Antigone is a daughter of King Oedipeus and Jocasta.When her father died,she wants to pay respect by burying her father,however,it's an outlaw for women to follow a funeral.It's only for men.In this patrimony system which always viewed women as only "birth machine",Antigone try to against this stupid custom.She believes that there's no such thing as man is a leader,woman just a follower.Whoever can rule,regardless man or woman,can also rule.

Antigone rival is Creon,Oedipeus brother(which means it's Antigone uncle).And the rival begins as it's shows that Antigone is far more intelligent than her uncle,but man will always follow their ego,and until the end,Creon kill Antigone.

Haha I die with pride!Wow this play is inspiring.Nami or Hafiz,please help me right now!

Tag From Sue

5 Fakta tentang diri:

-very very particular about toothbrush
-book worm
-straight-forward
-straight,but not narrow
-celtic fc fan

5 perkara menakutkan dalam dunia:

celtic 0 xxxx 5!
broken legs(again!)
perverts
fat
hospitals.

5 lagu buat masa sekarang

I Love My Computer-Bad Religion
Bodysnatchers-Radiohead
I'm the Greatest Man Ever Lived-Weezer
viva forever-spice girls
Warning-Green Day

5 perkara yang selalu disebut:

hik hik!
ezreentastic!
go my platipus go!
saya kangen(when I'm with citra)
girl power!


5 benda yang amat bernilai
george orwell's animal farm novel
encyclopedia
my platipus
elly's keychain gift :( miss her!
my mom's birthday card :( miss her!

5 perkara pertama kali dalam hidup ku:

pertama kali jatuh cinta masa umur 11 tahun-an italian boy name giuseppe.tapi cinta tak terbalas.
pertama kali pergi travel dengan bf kat singapore-2004.
pertama kali masuk hospital umur 7 tahun.
pertama kali dapat surat cinta umur 10 tahun.
pertama kali pergi konsert-green day 2006.

An Idiot Create Me A Stupid Friendster.

http://profiles.friendster.com/78653923

First of all,I never have a Friendster account.

Second,I'm not Malaysian citizen.I'm in Glenmore,Calgary,AB,Canada.

The picture that being used in that Friendster is 2 years old.If I intend to create my Friendster I will update my new pictures,perhaps with sexy or naked pictures of me to attract sex-maniac to add me.

There's a lot guys who trying to add me by saying "hiiii..leh kenal..","hi cuteeeeyy..""hi syggg..!!",and I will replied "You're retarded" or "dumbass".

I won't put my name "Ezreen Sulaiman",instead I will put my nicks such as "Ez the Conspirator","Double E","E" or "Ez".

Anyway wasu makatan,thanks for information.Let me inform you again,I NEVER HAVE A FRIENDSTER ACCOUNT.

Nami,did you smell this is Fahmi's job?I think he knew my password.I never change my email password,because I don't know how.